Four years ago today. It was a moment in time that was life changing. I had moved back in with my parents after my second husband had abandoned me only after 3 years of marriage. I was recovering from a biopsy. Yes the possibility of cancer was rattling around in my head.
I had taken the weekend to take my kids to Indy to visit my cousin, Robin, and her husband. The story is on my old blog below. It was a wonderful weekend.
Our trip home was a hard one. The call came through. We had stopped at a restaurant to eat. That was a God thing. The call came through while I was sitting. Thank you Jesus. The call confirming I had breast cancer. The biopsy on the tumor tested positive for it.
I have to praise my son for a very calm drive home. He was just learning and he did an awesome job. I still was in a bit of denial what was coming. I just didn’t think it was gonna be that bad. Quick surgery and that’s it. But, of course, it was more than that. And in time we learned of the details.
But in that moment I felt a peace. It was a definite God given peace.
Romans 5:1 (ESV)
” Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we[a] have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.”
Now to understand this first of all we need to know that to be ‘justified by faith’ means we have declared our faith and as a result we are promised a ‘peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ’. Through our faith in Jesus Christ we are promised a peace. It’s not something we have to strive for. We are promised it as soon as we declare our faith in Him.
Ephesians 2:14 “For he himself is our peace, who has made us both one and has broken down in his flesh the dividing wall of hostility”
Paul was writing from prison to the Gentiles and Jews letting them know that now that they have all started to worship the same God together He has given them a peace among the people. There is no more fighting.
Isaiah 9:6 “For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given;
and the government shall be upond his shoulder,
and his name shall be callede
Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.”
He is our Prince of Peace. It is promised to us. But only when we declare our faith and have committed our hearts to HIM do we feel that peace “that passes all understanding”.
In that moment that I was waiting on that fateful phone call and even after the news that I had cancer I had that peace. My faith in HIM had helped calm me in this storm and know I would be ok and God would take care of me and my children.
“Well no matter who you are and no matter what you’ve done
There will come a time when you can’t make it on your own
And in your hour of desperation
Know you’re not the only one
praying Lord above, I need a miracle
I need a miracle”
“In your hour of desperation
Know you’re not the only one, praying
Lord above, I need a miracle
Lord above I need a miracle”