5 Years ago…and now.

Tomorrow. Tomorrow I will celebrate a whole 5 years since I started my chemotherapy for breast cancer. It’s gonna be a day of reflection. A day to see how God has brought me through so much in so little time. I am already contemplating how I need to continue to go forward. You see it is also a day we are laying a very special lady to rest. A lady who I knew was special. A lady who touched so many lives. A lady who did not have it easy but through loving Jesus, loving life, and loving people, she was someone that all of us will miss. And for me a lady who I strive to be like. I will contemplate how; How God can I be more like her? Someone who just wanted to show Jesus to everyone she was with.

I can say I know for a solid fact that she is here in Spirit with us. Happy. In Peace. Not hurting anymore. And looking at us all as lovingly as she always did. I know she is with Jesus. No question about it.

I have lost several friends to cancer over the last 5 years. I have lost family members. Some cancer, some not. Some you wonder where their Spirit is. You aren’t sure. It’s hard not knowing if you will ever see them again. Do you know how hard that is??? To not know. Is that how I want to leave my close friends and family. Wondering. Not sure about me. No it is not.

I want to leave like Kimmie has. Knowing she loved Jesus. Knowing she loved everyone around her. Knowing she loved me. And, most important, knowing she is being loved by Jesus now. She strove to love others and now she is with Jesus — being loved on by HIM!!!

I John 4:11-12

11 Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 12 No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us.

Proverbs 3:18

“She is a tree of life to those who lay hold of her; those who hold her fast are called blessed.”

Luke 1:45

“And blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what was spoken to her from the Lord.”

This last verse….read it. Take it in. She loved. She was called blessed. She was fulfilled. What peace there is in that.

Kimmie you will be missed. But I know you are right now watching all of us grieve and smiling because you know you are loved now. And you are happy. And you want us to know….

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